I have had a fascination with Vampires most of my life. The thought, even 25 years ago for me, of becoming one has always been, not a dream or aspiration, I'm not sure what to call it, it's not even a fantasy. This has been a fore thought of mine for a long time. I have always thought that if I could become one I could bring a world of wisdom to this world. I am not what you call a rich person, or even one that you would take a second look at. I am in fact a pretty average middle-aged female and lately, thanks to Stephanie Meyer, the thoughts I had as a younger person have brought to light that there might be a possibility that a vampire can lead a normal life.
I have pondered more recently that the fact that I could actually become one and possibly take this painful human existence away and maybe the pain of others that feel pain too away. Living with pain on a daily basis is far the worst thing to endure, I see it around me and I am not talking emotional pain but physical pain the kind that makes you want to take your life, the kind that when you see an older person live with makes you cry, that pain.
I have prayed that someone with the power to change me would come and do it. I have seen cancer patients, and patients with other deceases suffer horrifying deaths and honestly I do not want to die, I just want to be as normal as possible, I don't want pity because I feel like this, I don't want people to have to take care of me when I get older I just want to be me and all that it entails. An existence with out this, for me and my husband and I want my kids to live a full life without pain, to have kids and have the love that I share with my beloved. I would not wish my decision on any person but to see the pain in my husbands eyes is more than I can bare, the pain I feel is more than he can bare.
Well slap my face red.... recently I have been really searching around trying to find, well let's just say answers... to what you ask? Life, mine, yours, everybody's. Ok so we all have had some kind of wishing, want, need... what if I said that i was closer to a Real Vampire than I knew...LOL... what if I said to you, so have you.... and then I say remember all those little annoying complaints this person has about not feeling pain and there are days that this person just eminates feelings that everyone else seems to pick up on and then BAM you feel the same way... or how about this one, has that person just picked up something heavy that you tried and couldn't, I am not talking Edward strength here just stronger than normal. this person will not come out and tell you they are vampyre. They will not seemingly give you a straight answer ever. My favorite scenario... well not really... this person rarely gets sick, heals fast (not like in the movies, in fact a normal 3-4 week heal will take 1 week, like from surgery.) Ok I've given enough info so now here is the site, check it out, know anyone one that fits what it is explaining?
There is even a section on Slayer's, I can honestly say I know at least one, LOL... no it is not me. Funny sometimes how life works out, Right?
Enough rambling. the site:
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complaining and whining that's all
ReplyDeleteThis isnt whining its the way we all would like the world to be. No more pain, suffering, hurting each other. However I believe the pain makes us stronger. Do I want to see people suffer? Of course not. Wouldyou really want to live forever though? I have thought about that too after reading Interview with the Vampire. Living on and on when friends and family are living the cycle of life would be difficult. However since we are not vampires and if there are some we dont know who they are. Would I take the opportunity if offered? I dont know. that is one question that will never have an answer
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